Dear You, You who is thinking of taking their own life today. Here is what will happen if you go through with it. You will be found. And for that person, that memory will never ever leave them. That family member will have to call 911 while their hands shake and their heart is in shock. The police will come and investigate the scene. They have to make sure it was a suicide and not foul play or an accident. Your next of kin will then be advised. The chain of pain starts at this moment and trickles on down the family tree throughout the day. Your spouse/partner will pace around and replay that morning. They will want to run screaming down the street with no shoes on but they won't because your children are in the next room. 5 minutes or an hour later the police show up at your home to interview your spouse. They hand them your wallet, your keys, your belongings and they ask a million very personal questions and ask to look in your fridge and medicine cabinet for clues. The day you take your life, the people around you that love you their lives are turned upside down. Your spouse & family will immediately contact the undertaker, instead of falling into a heap of tears in bed they will stand in your kitchen planning your funeral. Do you want roses or sunflowers? A wood casket or metal? So many things to figure out when a life ends so abruptly. On the day that you die, the word will spread fast thanks to good ol' social media. Friends will be posting, "R.I.P." on your Facebook page before all of your family has even been notified of your passing. Your spouse will have to sit down your children and tell them that you have died. They will have no idea how to word this or how to answer those children's questions. They were never taught how to comfort a child through trauma of this magnitude & this will change your children's lives forever. Your parents will be in shock. Your siblings knees will hit the floor. Your friends will wonder about what they could have done. They will beat themselves up that they never returned the call (for help?) that you left just the other day on their voicemail. Everyone will wonder how they will live all these decades without you. Your job will be notified that you have died. Your work items sent home. No one you love will eat anything that day. Everyone you love will hold each other that day possibly blame each other or themselves on that day. Some will lose their faith in God, others will cling to theirs like a life line. Your mail will arrive with no one to open it. Your clothes will hang sadly in your closet. Remnants of a life left too soon. On the day that you take you life, there are a series of events that unfold like dominoes that cracks the hearts of those you love forever. They are never, ever the same. They might wonder if they ever really knew you, forever wonder of secrets you might have kept, and eternally mourn thinking of the pain you must have silently been going through. Birthdays, anniversaries, holidays will never feel the same. Dear you, If you are thinking of taking your life today. I hope this reaches you. YOU ARE LOVED YOUR LIFE MATTERS THERE IS HELP, AND HOPE. And life can get better. I don't write this to guilt you into staying. I understand that sometimes people leave this earth and it's not because they want their life to end they need their pain to stop. I know that sometimes people take their own lives and they don't have the mental or emotional capacity to think of what this will do to their loved ones. They are too deep into the darkness the silent blackness where all they can hear is the enemy saying, “You don't matter to anyone. This pain will never end." So if you still leave? Dear you, I tell you this synopsis of the day you might end your life so you know all these people LOVE YOU. Know that most suicides are thought of days, weeks, months before but not followed through on. YOU DO NOT have to follow through on these thoughts and feelings. You can stay and fight. Know that once you are gone you can't come back. Please know that you are so loved. If you are struggling with your own mental health, life's hardships, or suicidal thoughts please make the brave move to call, text or message a friend asking for help, talk to your GP. This is ALOT harder than most people think, so if you think someone needs help OFFER it.💜